Even though my body is challenging me with hormonal rebalancing and aching and creaking to remind me it is ageing, I am (mostly) healthy and for that I am grateful.
I come from a serious family which values work and productivity above all. Play, creativity and fun don't come easily to me. Here I am at 54, free from work and with sufficient funds to choose to explore this side of myself.
I have had a lucky life and yet I often make choices to live someone else's dreams. By this I am mean I am a pleaser, I am always checking if what I do will make others happy or at least get their approval.
When I stop now and say I can do anything I want, I am afraid. I don't know what makes my heart sing and ignites my passion.
Here I am in midlife and I want to take the steps to explore possibilities, learn about myself and in so doing find a way to make my own mark on the world.
I am sitting here with a blank canvas. This blog is where I want to share the things that inspire me, excite me and puzzle me.
I want to use this time to step tentatively in new directions, to dive into untested waters and to slosh around in some exciting creativity.
I am a person who always needs a plan so this is going to be a challenge to listen to the universe and be open to new opportunity.
I want to drop pebbles of possibility into the water and watch and experience the ripples of change within me and my world.
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| "Ripples in Lane Cove National Park" November 2011 |
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